FRIDAY 4th JULY 2003 R.I.P.
This has got to be the worst day of my life! This is the day my boyfriend was killed in a car crash near the Blackwall Tunnel. Only somebody who has experienced this will feel the pain I feel. I love you Wayne and Marlon R.I.P. I don't know how to handle this but God please look after them.

FRIDAY 11th JULY 2003
Scotland
Fly to Scotland with my manager, this is my first day back at work but I'm finding it very hard.

MONDAY 14th JULY 2003
My Birthday!
My boyfriend had planned to take me out. I'm so sad, so my best friend B plans a surprise birthday dinner! And all my real friends show and for a few hours I was happy again. I love you guys. Thanks B.

SATURDAY 19th JULY 2003
Channel 5, Newcastle
I DJ after the Blazin' Squad. Had a great time on the beach. Got my producer from Game Tight with me, Phoenix, who manages to lose the key to my trailer after losing - his passport, 3 room keys, money etc, etc, ha ha! After work we popped out to a club for a few hours. It's nice to be away, but Wayne's always on my mind.

SUNDAY 20th JULY 2003
Ayr, Scotland
Euan picks me up at the hotel at 3.00pm after I've spent hours in the gym. He drives us to Air which takes about six hours (Euan you drive real slow!) But it was lovely talking with you, you're great! Got to the club and there was loads of sound problems, oh well shit happens. But when it got fixed all was ok. Euan thanks for my new aerial.

MONDAY 21st JULY 2003
Studio
Oh my goodness I've just got off the flight! I'm so late back because I had to get on a different flight because the first plane was over booked! Now I have to go straight to the studio to record my latest tune! All went well though, but I've had no sleep in days and I can't wait to see my dog! Wassup to all the Game Tight lot and thanks to Keys - my Number 1 voice coach, Soulz, Lil' Me, Matty and Phoenix - phat voice!

THURSDAY 24th JULY 2003 R.I.P.
My baby's funeral, I will love you forever! X

SATURDAY 26th JULY 2003
Channel 5, Birmingham
Drive to Birmingham. Follow Suz and all her brother's mates (you guys are funny!) Go on just before Danni Minogue then the Blazin' Squad do another good show (they're good). Drive home. Phoenix and I eat loads of pizza!