FRIDAY 1st OCTOBER 2004
Marseille
Went to Gatwick to meet Cat Mcqueen, my model friend. We head off to Marseille only to find the hotel is yucky, so we find a nice hotel (The Grand) opposite the port and check in. Its really beautiful here. Just wish I had time off to look around. I would recommend it for a romantic weekend. The people here are real nice and there's a big Hip Hop scene.
Anyway, I'm off to bed. I watch Bad Boys 2 and fall asleep.

SATURDAY 2nd OCTOBER 2004
Marseille
Did a shoot on the beach. Its quite hot and we pass a skateboard park, but I forgot my rollerblades !! Damn !! Got a nice tan now.
Went to dinner and talk about the saying "Never Say Never". I insisted that you can say never, arguing that I would never do it up the bum or rape a cow. Think I won that one then !!!!
Went back to bed and watched "The 25th Hour", a Spike Lee movie. Its deep !! Got to see it again.

MONDAY 4th OCTOBER 2004
Just got back from Marseille and have a really nice time at home, but I'm not going in to detail !! Ha Ha !! Ya know ...

WEDNESDAY 6th OCTOBER 2004
My screen test for a movie - wish me luck !!
Then I rush home to pack and sort out my records for Dubai and Bahrain. Also start my Sun Online sex advice, so don't forget to email in, if you have a problem that is.
I'm an insomniac. Maybe because I think so much about everything. You name it - life, people's problems, my stuff, varnishing wood (!?!?), anything really. I can't sleep and tonight's topic on my mind is "What is Love / Hate Anyway?".
A great pyschologist once said there are two types of love : (1) In Love and (2) Love. Apparently, In Love is sex-related ie you don't fall In Love with your family, friends, or God. And inevitably you fall Out of Love - In Love never lasts. But you can grow in time to Love someone. Love however is real and never dies, its unconditional, like how we love real friends, family, and God. Whenever I talk to my friends that are so-called In Love there's always some drama or anxiety. It never seems like Love to me - you know, we've all been there. But the word Love sounds so pure, shouldn't it be great? If so, why do people In Love feel so confused? Maybe his theory is right after all. And if so does sex really change the way we feel? Or is In Love a journey to true Love that can only end when you fall Out of Love? Maybe we should never fall In Love and just hold out for real Love. So my question is - is it possible to Love (with sex) without being In Love first?
What is Hate? They say to hate another you must hate yourself, but don't we all hate things about ourselves, whether superficial stuff like looks or deeper things like our minds past regrets? If this is so, is hate and insecurity not the same thing? And if we were never insecure, would we be incapable of Hate?

THURSDAY 7th OCTOBER 2004
Fly to Dubai
James picks up me and Carlos and we're off. Arrive to paradise and to find that out return flights are wrong. We are arrive at the hotel and Marissa checks us in. Its so beautiful, in fact words can't describe this amazing place. I can only say that as I open my balcony door and the heat hits my body, I look out to the beach and there's a path leading to the ocean lit with beautiful lanterns. This is really fairy tale stuff. I have never seen such a beautiful place. Suddenly alll my worries about the return flights and any other crazy things I was worrying about evaporate in to the humid air, and I think to myself "God, I'm so lucky to be alive". I phone down to Carlos' room. Apparently he has an even bigger suite than me - a running joke, whenever I take a friend away they always get the bigger room !! But I love my hotel room. I fall asleep with the air con off : air con sucks. I just want to feel the sea air even though its 97degrees !!

FRIDAY 8th OCTOBER 2004
Dubai
Tonight I'm DJing at a mansion but the day is free, so I'm off to the beach. Damn its hot - I mean real hot !! I walk into the sea to cool off but its like bath water. I order kiwi cocktails and relax. Carlos comes down and drags me off to the gym. Later we have a wonderful meal - the food is great - and I bump into all the racing guys who are here for the desert race. Marissa picks us up and we're off to the party. Damn, the house is out of this world, filled with marble, pools in to pools, and the people here are so nice too. We chill out for a while then I'm on. There's loads of English people at the party : its mad - like being in the UK - so shout to all you guys and the Canadians I met too. Shout to everyone who bought my baseball caps - by the end of the night they are everywhere !!
About 4am I decide to go as we have an early flight to Bahrain. But my driver has gone !! The door man said "Don't worry" and hands me a set of car keys - I don't think he understood me !! I look at the SL : umm, nice, but I wouldn't know where I was going. Eventually at 4:30 they find my driver and I'm off to sleep. Night. x

SATURDAY 9th OCTOBER 2004
Bahrain
After loads of security we arrive in Bahrain. I'm sad to leave Dubai, but excited to see a new place. Steve and Allan, the owners of the club and promoters, pick us up. A guy drives in to the back of his new X5 and Steve is pissed off - he said nobody can drive here and after seeing several incidents I begin to believe him.
We check in to the hotel and he takes us to dinner at Camelot. I didn't realise the place was called Camelot, but I did note the massive round table which I insisted we must sit at even though there was only three of us !! Damn, its so beautiful I feel like one of the knights and stuff my face - the food is great and you must try the better than sex chocolate cake : oh no, sorry, that's the one my grandmother makes !! But the cake is out of this world !!
Steve takes us to the club. Its real nice here, people from all over, and some US army guys (what's up?). Had a great time playing here - can't wait to come back. Shout to the girls and guys that got one of my DJ caps. Thanks for the suport. Hang out after my set then back to bed - I'm worn out !!

SUNDAY 10th OCTOBER 2004
Bahrain
Mike (Steve the promoter's mate) is kind enough to take us out on his boat, so we're off to Bahrain yacht club. Pack some food, ice, and drinks, and I feel it necessary to warn him of my family's great boat disasters throughout the history of time, starting with my grandfather who was meant to be on the Titanic !! In fact, really every time I get on a boat something goes wrong. But he just laughs so I board. Wow, this is great. We take the boat into the middle of the ocean. Its amazing. I feel like jumping off the boat, so I do. There are dolphins that look more like sharks, and I suddenly remember the movie "Open Water". Mike drives the boat off - whoa !! Carlos gets back on the boat and I think I better too. Suddenly out of nowhere the engine blows up !!! TOLD YOU !!! We drift to a small island with a bar on it. Its great, I love this place. I have a deep conversation with Mike - you're cool !! Then we have to leave, as the engine has gone its going to take us a long time to get back. But I don't mind, I could stay out here for hours.

SATURDAY 30th OCTOBER 2004
Bliss @ Level, Bristol
Drive to Bristol with rapper Pounds. Get to hotel, get changed, and go to dinner with Michelle the promoter. Then on to the club. I love the crowd here. They really know the tunes. I play a bit more ragga than normal, I like a change. Great time as always, then back to the hotel to find my mate had been stabbed by some crack head !! I try to persuade her to go to hospital, its really bad, but she won't. The next morning when the alcohol has worn off she's in real pain and goes. Then me and Pounds drive back to London.